Happy Leap year Birthday

Four years ago on leap year we had a Birthday party. It was fancy dress. To participate you brought a gift of a $50 value. Everyone got a gift and everone got drunk. Fun was had by all. It was a great party.

4 years ago. I was with Benny as much as I could be with him. We left the the party together. We left every party together. It was the beginning of our 3 year hook up relationship, the Irish version of a "relationship" I'm told.
We had gotten together on New Years Eve 2004. Woke up together New Years day 2005 and vowed not to do it again. Then it was volatile until Christmas day 2006 when I got drunk, cried and carried on...and vowed I would never need to talk to him again. Even though our best friends are all the same. It's been rough. All year I avoided parties and Holiday weekends away when I knew he'd be there. Only once did I see him, at Wayne and Katie's house warming Christmas party.

Just the background.

This leap year we all gather at Paddy Coynes' pub to drink and celebrate. It starts at 8pm. By 9:30 Benny shows. I was hoping he would skip it, or show up and act like a human. No he's drunk. He's been drinking Guinness since 3pm. Most likely hasn't eaten. Benny is all of 5'7" 135lb of foolish Irishman.
He stares at me for awhile. He finally comes over and instead of saying hi, he stands next to me and sort of feels for my hand and looks at me. Hi. Unfortunately it feels good. Shit. I'm pathetic. He slurs and goes on. Walks away comes back. Trys to put his arm around me, that's one thing about Benny he is affectionate when drunk. We are alone. No one is listening. They are watching. He looks at me and quietly says "wanna fuck?" I lean in and laugh "of course." He's like OK, as I continue "But not tonight and not with you" "fuck you" is the response I get back. He goes on about how he's a very sexual guy. I tell him to call me tomorrow...you know that's not going to happen. He says. I know this and ask him, why would I want to go home with you tonight then? He agrees with my view. Why would I?
He can barely stand.
I should slap him.
He won't remember so what's the point.
Wayne calls him a cab and he's gone.
I'm sad for what will never be.

I need a better man.

Biz Lady meet up

DWR is sponsoring a meet up for women by Design*Sponge.
I meet Gail and we have a drink before attending. While we are talking about what we need to do next I mention I'm going to see an astrologist. I am working on my psychic gifts.
She is amazed that I've seen ghosts and I always know when somthing is going to happen.
She says something important to me about how when you ignore one of your gifts it can block a lot of what should be happening in your life. That's how I feel.

It's interesting.
I can do this. I just need to sit down and create.

Focus.

Baked like a rotissery chicken

This was the scenery of my life the past 10 days. I think I need to move some place warm. Why an I living in Seattle?

I am embarassingly tan. Hard to tell in this photo because I like to put sunscreen on my face, but check out the chest. I think I need to go blond again. My tummy is very tan. Need to get back to yoga!!

Working girl

Got laid off toay.
Yes. I knew it was coming, but it still pissed me off.
It will be fine, unemployment and a better job are in my future. Also vacation, I leave for Hawaii on Sundy.

I knew it was going to happen. I have had 4 managers since I've been there in a year and a half. The place is poison. The owner has such a huge ego he thinks he can increase sales by 20% over last year without more marketing. We need more customers.

More about me, how did I feel? I was expecting it and had been telling my staff I would be gone before my vacation. They didn't believe me. I was fine with it, went out on the floor to get my stuff. Thom was there, "I'm so sorry he said" Reed was next, he was just pissed off, "Why are thye doing this, are they idiots?", Sean laughed "What are they thinking?" I was packing up and Bryan appeared...nice working with you, I just got laid off. "no!" he said. Crappy. I started to get upset. I went into the breakroom to tell Justin. He got emotional, then I got emotional. "stop it" I said. Reed came into get my number. I had to call Tina in HR and get escorted out, turn in my badge, keys, all that. She gave me hug and said you know you will find something better.

I'm glad to be leaving there. What will I do next?

I'll miss these guys.

Went out with the girls and got drunk.