Paintings up

I'm finally on etsy. Batcat is my name. Art for kids. We shall see what happens.

chicks up front

Today I went to see the chaneller.
She told me a lot of the same things the astrologist did.
Child was her thing. She said she could see children all around me for the moment I entered the room.
I need to use my gifts to help children. Art and stories to help children (and we are all children.)
She recomended calling my spirit guides and setting a time to write...just write whatever came to me. Knowing that I am more than I think I am. It's bigger than I think it could be. Teaching others how to act in the world...shit, that's big because sometimes I don't know how to act.

Balancing fear and adventure and chanelling that energy.

Last night I met the tall boy for a few drinks then met Katherine, her man, and another couple. The woman just opened a shop and wants to see my baby hats. There's one opportunity. She said this woman has energy rise to her, but that she overspeaks and underdoes, so to be aware of that. She said I would have a few other opportunities by the end of summer.

She also said I need the cleanse myself of the pain my last job had caused me, it's still hangin around. Especially overcoming a toxic man (the owner who brings pain on all those who work for him) and gave me a ceremony to perform.
She said I need to set up an altar, which I already have, I just don't use. So now is the time to get it going.
What kind of hippy am I becoming??
She got really excited about me becoming a coach for others, using what I discover for the good of others. Being supportive and keeping accountability for others...after I learn to do that for myself. Easier said than done. Yikes...so much.

I need FOCUS. I realize this! I must do. Plan and set goals for myself and keep them.
That I am exactly where I need to be.
That it is time to have fun.
"Chicks up front" the old call during marches in the 60's when to quite the cops the organizers, would call the women to the front. Now is the time for women to reach out and make a difference.


So I paid for a business license today.
Ready to rock and roll.

intelligence, friendship, strength and poetry

I hung out with Claire friday night.
I was hung over, she kept telling me to be happy, she's so happy. I told her I was happy just tired. She said sleep then and tried to tuck the blanket around me on the sofa. Then she would come right back and try to rip it off and say "be happy!"

Oh, I was happy.
Claire said let's sing. She set a pillow on the fire place ledge and sat down. She placed her hands in her lap and started singing. Her voice changed became higher, trying to find her melody.

"Twinkle, Twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are
Up so bright in the dark sky"

Pretty good for a 2 1/2 year old.
She looked at me as if I should join in or finish.
I don't remember the words.

I looked them up today:

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
When the blazing sun is gone,
When he nothing shines upon,
Then you show your little light,

Twinkle, twinkle, all the night.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

Then the traveler in the dark
Thanks you for your tiny spark;
He could not see which way to go,
If you did not twinkle so.

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often through my curtains peep,
For you never shut your eye
Till the sun is in the sky.

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
As your bright and tiny spark
Lights the traveler in the dark,
Through I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

Claire is the smartest girl.

I just read that the Balinese believe you have four brothers who go with you where ever you go and protect you. They can be called on to assist and rescue you.
They inhabit the our virtues a person needs in order to be happy and safe in life: intelligence, friendship, strength, and poetry.

I need to be able to sing with Claire on Monday when I see her next.

Smiling paintings

Today was pretty perfect too.
I went to yoga.
I called wine dude and told him not to be embarrased to call me back.
And he did at 10:30 pm, what's up with that? i'll call him tomorrow.
I painted all evening. Some good stuff.
Happy stuff.

I am reading "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabth Gilbert. She is dealing with in this book what I'm starting to deal with now in my life. It's one of those "Celestine Prophecy" moments, although maybe I am reading the book at the right time now. With the "CP" I waited until I was already in Australia to read it.

Perfect day

Thursday
I checked emails.
I went to yoga.
I got coffe and a cupcake after yoga.
The sun was out so painted a piece of furniture and a frame outside. That is one of my favorite things to do.

Katherine came over and we went for a long walk. I try to help her with her issues, but she has a long journey ahead.

I then picked her up and we headed down to Pioneer Square for Art Walk. Stoped in a Gallery IMA, actually parked in their garage. Had a glass on wine. Went to another gallery, not serving wine, awesome inspiring collage art. Katherine wanted to hit a bar (bar fly that she is) so we had a VT. To another gallery where Katherine used to work...so had another glass of wine. Then made our goodbye's to Dino and headed back to Ballard.

Stoped in at Hazelwood. VT2, then to Hatties' VT3, then to People's Pub (VT4&5) and I started a conversation with the man sitting next to us about Katherine's problem then eneded up giving him my number (and kissing him 3 times like the Brazilians do, he just looked like he needed a blessing...may you never get married type). We then went back to Hazelwood which was hoppin now. Katherine ordered us drinks VT6! Oh my!

I met a woman who said she was a children's book editor and wanted female friends (I gave her my info) and then I met a man who is in the wine making program, he knew LongShadows (where my brother in law is a wine maker) and I gave him my number. I think a few more drinks were bought for me, by the woman and then by a guy she was talking to who spilled my drink, and I talked to him. Then I talked to the wine maker guy again...and went home.

Thanks God for getting me home.
I can not drink with Katherine, she drinks like a fish and I don't know when to say I'll have a soda please.

When I woke up Friday I had 6 missed calls and 2 messages from wine guy. Funny.
I watched a movie and lazed all day till I had to go hang with Claire.

I decide to stop dating and I give two different men my number.
This is how it works.

pen pals

I was talking to 3 other men that I met on line. I gave all of them my phone number.
Two wanted to be pen pals, the other just wouldn't take the initiative (don't give me options for 3 different nights)

I gave up on all of them.
What I need to do now is concentrate on something bigger than me. Not relationships but life purpose, yesterday told me that.

Done with dating for now. Closed my profile, after checking out a bunch of other men, sending some flirts and not getting any real response.

That's done. Thanks God.

Second Chakra

I went to the svadhyaya yoga class today.
This class is about looking within. Considering what my day was like yesterday I think I needed more.
It was focusing on the second chakra which is in the groin. I can to a very peaceful state and felt one with my body quite a few times during the practice.
At one point I felt a 10% feeling like yesterday of the gold energy pulsing through my body, but we were focusing lower.

The Sacral Chakra is associated with the color orange or red-orange. You focus on spinning the second chakra. This chakra often offers us the opportunity to lessen our "control issues" and find a balance in our lives, teaching us to recognize that acceptance and rejection are not the only options in our relationships. The process of making changes in our life stream through our personal choices is a product of second chakra energy. A well-functioning second chakra helps one to maintain a healthy yin-yang existence.

Chakra Two - Associations
Color - orange
Physical Location - lower abdomen to the navel
Purposes - emotional connection
Spiritual Lesson - creativity, manifestation.


Dring the practice I heard a voice that told me to ask the instructor for help afterwards, that she wouldn't be able to help me but would know someone who could. It was very strong. So I did. I don't think I could have left the room without asking.

When I told her about my experience, I began to cry again. I asked her for help, but she couldn't help me. I didn't tell her that something had said she would know someone to help me, I guess I was afraid (fucking fear again!) But as I was putting on my shoes she said I have a channeler (she was afraid too!) do you think she could help?

This was it. This was what I was suposed to find out from her. So she gave me a name and I'll see what the spirits have in store.