chicks up front

Today I went to see the chaneller.
She told me a lot of the same things the astrologist did.
Child was her thing. She said she could see children all around me for the moment I entered the room.
I need to use my gifts to help children. Art and stories to help children (and we are all children.)
She recomended calling my spirit guides and setting a time to write...just write whatever came to me. Knowing that I am more than I think I am. It's bigger than I think it could be. Teaching others how to act in the world...shit, that's big because sometimes I don't know how to act.

Balancing fear and adventure and chanelling that energy.

Last night I met the tall boy for a few drinks then met Katherine, her man, and another couple. The woman just opened a shop and wants to see my baby hats. There's one opportunity. She said this woman has energy rise to her, but that she overspeaks and underdoes, so to be aware of that. She said I would have a few other opportunities by the end of summer.

She also said I need the cleanse myself of the pain my last job had caused me, it's still hangin around. Especially overcoming a toxic man (the owner who brings pain on all those who work for him) and gave me a ceremony to perform.
She said I need to set up an altar, which I already have, I just don't use. So now is the time to get it going.
What kind of hippy am I becoming??
She got really excited about me becoming a coach for others, using what I discover for the good of others. Being supportive and keeping accountability for others...after I learn to do that for myself. Easier said than done. Yikes...so much.

I need FOCUS. I realize this! I must do. Plan and set goals for myself and keep them.
That I am exactly where I need to be.
That it is time to have fun.
"Chicks up front" the old call during marches in the 60's when to quite the cops the organizers, would call the women to the front. Now is the time for women to reach out and make a difference.


So I paid for a business license today.
Ready to rock and roll.

Second Chakra

I went to the svadhyaya yoga class today.
This class is about looking within. Considering what my day was like yesterday I think I needed more.
It was focusing on the second chakra which is in the groin. I can to a very peaceful state and felt one with my body quite a few times during the practice.
At one point I felt a 10% feeling like yesterday of the gold energy pulsing through my body, but we were focusing lower.

The Sacral Chakra is associated with the color orange or red-orange. You focus on spinning the second chakra. This chakra often offers us the opportunity to lessen our "control issues" and find a balance in our lives, teaching us to recognize that acceptance and rejection are not the only options in our relationships. The process of making changes in our life stream through our personal choices is a product of second chakra energy. A well-functioning second chakra helps one to maintain a healthy yin-yang existence.

Chakra Two - Associations
Color - orange
Physical Location - lower abdomen to the navel
Purposes - emotional connection
Spiritual Lesson - creativity, manifestation.


Dring the practice I heard a voice that told me to ask the instructor for help afterwards, that she wouldn't be able to help me but would know someone who could. It was very strong. So I did. I don't think I could have left the room without asking.

When I told her about my experience, I began to cry again. I asked her for help, but she couldn't help me. I didn't tell her that something had said she would know someone to help me, I guess I was afraid (fucking fear again!) But as I was putting on my shoes she said I have a channeler (she was afraid too!) do you think she could help?

This was it. This was what I was suposed to find out from her. So she gave me a name and I'll see what the spirits have in store.